Pain is temporary

Looking down upon my wound

Another painless moment ruined

For an apathetic stretch of time

I felt content no need to rewind

I saw a purpose I found my place

More than just a runner in the human race

I thought I had become permanent

But rules can be broken they cannot be bent

I can’t escape it although I try

The day will come that I die

You see I tried to trancend

The hourglass I laid on its end

But the clock on the wall continued to tick

The monotonous sound made me sick

I could literally see the time pass

Through my reflection on the glass

I began to think I began to pace

The second hand began to race

I tried to beat it to the finish line

But of it there was no sign

My fist propelled by frustration

Stuck the pane causing sensation

My nerves sang impulses fired

For a split second I felt wired

My thought of time they all scattered

As the clock face shattered

As the shards pierced my skin

My face was struck with a grin

I found pleasure in being inpulsive

In the moment I had chosen to live

As I stood there bleeding

My blood expelled by my heart beating

When I looked back upon the wall

The clock hand not slowed down at all 

So you see this pain I feel

Will go away with time I’ll heal

Each second my chest will rise and fall

But am I really here at all

Because the seconds all blend together

Times will change just like the weather

I will grow I will age

I leave my thoughts upon this page

So when I die and when I’m gone

I might make a ripple in the pond

Live for the now live in the here

Because time is wasted on your fear

What does it mean to be alive

My body hates me for what I did

But i just needed to get rid

Of the pain so I could cope

Theses vices are my only hope

But they’re grip on me has tightened

I see the light but am not enlightened

My thoughts multiply with the seconds that pass

So I inhale and raise my glass

This elixir has yet to fail

at causing my train of thought to derail

And one again I am carefree

The ignorant bliss encompasses me

I don’t realize whats at stake

Until that is I awake

And my mistake becomes all too real

What is to live, but to feel

Dreams

I guess I never really wrote about this before

Well I did once in a dream

I sat upon a spiral staircase

amongst the clouds

Dipping a bird’s beak

into a well of ink

I painted the skies

With my words

Reality

Transportation

Finality

Creation

Teleportation

sheer bliss

escape

carelessness

I lie awake

now i think back to those skies

So beautifully painted with my words

And i am envious that I cannot live

Forever in that world

going to the club

I hate going to the club because there is never enough room

They alway cram what seems like thousands of people into the most confined spaces and expect everything to be alright. If thats not bad enough there is always a task that people at the club need to do Like it seems like everyone around me is on a mission and that mission is never to just dance and remain in their space Yea if you had any notions of a personal bubble just get rid of that right now People are always trying to drunkly find their friend go to the bathroom because their drunk or get to the bar so they can get drunk. Constant motion while I’m just trying to have a good time dudes are pushing through stepping on top of me but i can handle them what I can’t handle are the girls who push though you and then get all mad at you like its your fault. and girls get away with it too they just go wherever they want but i keep paying to go so i guess they’ve got something to offer

Hung up

I called to tell you I love you

but then I hung up

I called to tell you I love you

but you never picked up

You called to tell me you loved me

But I hung up

because I just got so hung up on saying those words

I never thought about if I meant them

So I meant to tell you I loved you

But you know I don’t lie

So I lied down and went to sleep

Because in my dreams we are together

and nothing is so imperfect

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Onesided

oh how it feels so unmistakable

The broken heart you thought to be unbreakable

You put all you faith into this chance

To have a full-fledged romance

Every ounce of you wants to feel the bliss

But when you leaned in for the kiss

The hope and ignorance torn from beneath you

How could someone so small defeat you

But thats just it with her tiny hand

She crushed your dreams of the wedding band

The band you thought would play a love song

But in this acrid silence you realize you were wrong

And even though you believed in love

You have been deceived by the dove

A peaceful creature prone to harm

If you don’t wake up sound the alarm

And take one step before you fall

For a girl who doesn’t love you at all